I can thank
a friend for stimulating discomfort intense enough for me to take the time and
create the intent to heal and find my deeper Self again. Sometimes my deepest and most cherished, but
outmoded, beliefs require not-so-gentle nudges from Source in the form of
important people in my life. Even though
I may be conscious of that as it is happening, it takes some healing and
resolution before I can really feel gratitude.
That gratitude is food for my inner independence. Some of the realizations that I found from “coming
to my knees” in earnest desire for change follow:
I allow my evolution. I release pushing, seeking, efforting,
trying, attached intending, expectations, and impatience. I allow myself to change the interaction with
my Ego and therefore with others. I slow
down breath, thought, energy flow, and allow myself to move into the deep
knowing space in my center that holds joy, humility, compassion for myself,
others and the planet, and the detachment from judgment about what I experience. I open my heart to myself and to all that is,
of which I am an inseparable part. I
know these words may seem like parroting of ancient and current teachings, but
they are coming from my heart and my inner experience. That is what Independence Day is to me
now: to be independent of beliefs,
feelings, expectations that originate outside of myself in the media, in decades
of acculturation, from honored mentors and from life experiences (past and
present). I know the old stories will
claim my attention again, but every time I allow this experience of inner
freedom, I make neuronal, cellular and even DNA paths for lasting change of my
response to life. As Barbara Marx
Hubbard would say, I more fully incarnate my Universal Self, my original
vibration of Being, as active in my human experience. Happy Independence Day!
