OUR EXPANDING IDENTITIES

 We have practice with changing our identities.  The child ballerina can move into the aspiring nurse, into the inspiring teacher, into the mother, into the grandmother world traveler, and into the wise crone.  A young soccer player puts away his shin guards, becomes the editor of the school newspaper, the inventor, a father, a global activist, and a wise mentor (either gender in any role).  We find comfort and stability in our identities.  What has been your identity journey?  Where are you now in who you tell yourself you are?  Who does the world tell you to be?

I recently entered the Transformational Author Contest, stimulating an acknowledgment within myself that I accept the identity of being an author, and one who has a message to share.  It was not automatic.  I had to vanquish all the Ego gremlins that said I was not worthy, not good enough, not experienced enough—you know the battle.  What won the battle for me was

1.       I took time to quiet my mind (I tell it to be cradled in Universal Mind and breathe in six directions—up, down, front, back, sides)

2.        Focus in my heart (I use HeartMath)

3.       Find my deepest knowing (I visualize my Core Column of Light just in front of and attached to my spine, extending into the earth’s center and up to Source)

Then I was clear that sharing words that teach or inspire is part of who I am.    In the old perspective that would be enough.  But there is a difference in these times.

Have you noticed that you sometimes feel blind-sided by what is happening in your life and those close to you?  Are you feeling more confusion and frustration when old methods of organizing and decision-making aren’t working?  My lists used to insure that I would get everything important done—now they often aren’t worth the scrap paper they’re written on.  Other organizing systems fall short as well.   

 It is accepted by many of our world’s finest minds that we are in a time of unparalleled change—of the very earth we live on and in all our society’s systems.  Many concerned with human consciousness and the energetic matrix surrounding us agree that the foundation we have used to stabilize us and provide direction for our lives is shifting so much that we feel lost.  Old methods of centering and “getting back to ourselves” don’t do the job anymore.  Who are we now?

Anodea Judith, in her book, Waking the Global Heart:  Humanity's Rite of Passage from the Love of Power to the Power of Love, writes that initiations of change.."were designed to break down the smaller ego-self in order to embrace a larger web of life.  From this wider perspective, one's own life can then take on deeper meaning and purpose, one that is in alignment--and therefore in service-- to the greater whole.''  Only when I expand my identity into the multidimensional Universe, and find the unlabeled Being at my center do I move forward with calm.  Only when my basic identity is one who serves the wider evolution of humanity, the planet and the Cosmos do I trust my individual well-being and know what action to take in the moment.  We can help one another realize and practice this change, and ask not only who I really am, but who am I expecting you to be—and then let go and feel who you really are.

For further information, visit www.kathrynbrewer.com/conscious-evolution, especially the links at the bottom of the page.  For scientific discussion go to BOOK at the top of the page and then to Parent/Teacher Supplement.        

INDEPENDENCE DAY

I can thank a friend for stimulating discomfort intense enough for me to take the time and create the intent to heal and find my deeper Self again.  Sometimes my deepest and most cherished, but outmoded, beliefs require not-so-gentle nudges from Source in the form of important people in my life.  Even though I may be conscious of that as it is happening, it takes some healing and resolution before I can really feel gratitude.  That gratitude is food for my inner independence.  Some of the realizations that I found from “coming to my knees” in earnest desire for change follow:         

I allow my evolution.  I release pushing, seeking, efforting, trying, attached intending, expectations, and impatience.  I allow myself to change the interaction with my Ego and therefore with others.  I slow down breath, thought, energy flow, and allow myself to move into the deep knowing space in my center that holds joy, humility, compassion for myself, others and the planet, and the detachment from judgment about what I experience.  I open my heart to myself and to all that is, of which I am an inseparable part.   I know these words may seem like parroting of ancient and current teachings, but they are coming from my heart and my inner experience.  That is what Independence Day is to me now:  to be independent of beliefs, feelings, expectations that originate outside of myself in the media, in decades of acculturation, from honored mentors and from life experiences (past and present).  I know the old stories will claim my attention again, but every time I allow this experience of inner freedom, I make neuronal, cellular and even DNA paths for lasting change of my response to life.  As Barbara Marx Hubbard would say, I more fully incarnate my Universal Self, my original vibration of Being, as active in my human experience.  Happy Independence Day!

This Time We Live

Mayan Ruins in Belize: Face From the Past

It is exciting, gratifying, wonderful, amazing to be alive at this time in history, but it is also very difficult. The schedules, practices, organization, “givens,” and old reliable ways of navigating life no longer work. We know how we want our interactions, our work, our moment to moment life to feel and we have moments of realizing that, but so often we know how it could be, and it just doesn’t get there. There is a drive in all of us, and some of us are now consciously feeling it. This drive is to move to what is better, more satisfying, more meaningful. I have always thought of it as being somewhat “Type A” and labeled it as slightly negative. I am discovering that is not true.

Many of today’s leading-edge thinkers, mystics and sages are talking about the unprecedented change that is to happen about 12/21/2011. The great majority agree that it is not the end of the world, but the end of society as we know it—that is, it will be if we are to survive as a species. There are many indicators that this is so—the state of the world economy, the political unrest throughout the world even in places that had been controlled to eliminate that, the atmospheric and weather changes, the dwindling pool of natural resources, the disillusionment of our youth and the rise of gangs, and the toxins in our air, water and food and in the earth itself.

From throughout the world, the wisest of us are seeing a similar solution. For the first time in history we understand that our thoughts/energy create. We know that groups of us joined together with a focused intent affect outcomes. We know that nature promotes those organisms that cooperate, and that nature inherently wants to seek balance. We know that evolution has happened in leaps and spurts throughout history, beginning with the Big Bang. We know deep in our core that we can make a difference in ourselves and through that, in our planet. But how?

It must begin with becoming acutely aware in every moment of the effect of what we think and do on others and the environment. We must find our individual way of connecting to the Essence, God part, Universal Intelligence of our inner being and coming to the place where we can choose to allow that part to manage our ego—not destroy our ego. It is through our Local, Individual, Ego Self that we make things happen in the world. The source of what those things will be must now come from our Essence, Higher Self, Divine Field, Universal Intelligence, God Within or whatever words make that real for you. I know these are just words until you have the experience of being quiet enough, long enough, with enough emotional clearing to truly feel your Essence. There are so many “issues” that we use to veil that experience. Perhaps the most potent is our fear of the power we have if we are deeply connected to our Universal Self, and our lack of experience with using it.

That drive I mentioned at first: Barbara Marx Hubbard and others define it as the drive of evolution itself held within us. Back in the 1980’s I read a paper written by a Methodist Minister who posed the question “Is God Evolving?” It was a very controversial topic at the time. More and more thinkers are answering “Yes” to that question, and God, Divine Source is doing it through each of us; but in order for us to realize what could be, we must co-create together. More on that to come.